The Bouquet Part II

Today started off good, I woke up 30 minutes before I had to go to work, so once again my locks continue to dread themselves...until tomorrow afternoon when they will be washed and combed thoroughly, I promise. :) So I got dressed in a flash and ran out the door with enough time to stop and get some liquid poison to get me moving faster than I would have without. I get to work and get mentally and verbally attacked and want to bawl my eyes out the rest of the work day. I was praying the whole day that the Lord would comfort me where I was and that I would not be listening to the lies that were being thrown against me and that were persistently trying to form as the day went on and I was left with my thoughts. It helped that a few people were praying for me. I have great people in my life. After work I went over to Clay's house. He made me dinner, let me vent and surprised me with flowers. He's an excellent boyfriend if I must say so myself. We watched a movie that was supposed to be scary, at least I remembered that it was like 6? years ago. Not so much, but at least it was relaxing and I got to spend time with my man; I don't care what we're doing, it's time well spent.

There are five other buds and when the flower dies I am supposed to cut it off and another flower will bloom. How stinking cool, right? Plus my fave color. Done and done. I think I'll keep him. :)

As this is my first relationship ever, I think it goes without saying that I am learning a lot and being stretched a lot. It is so good though. It's crazy how many ways the Lord is revealing himself to me through Clay, there are so many ways I couldn't possibly list them all, but His kindness and selflessness is what I'm thinking of mainly presently. I'm learning how to communicate instead of keeping everything bottled up inside until there's so much hurt and tension and unsaid and forgotten actions, but not emotions (I can't seem to forget those), that my lid blows. Learning how to care for somebody else besides myself (cooking is so much fun again now that I have somebody to share it with!) and knowing that my actions, words, etc. are effecting more than just me now. Learning how to have a boyfriend and still have a semi-social life. I always said that I wouldn't be the girl that got a man and forgot all her friends, I was not about to be that heifer. I think I can pat myself on the back on this one for right now, if he lived closer though I'm almost positive this would not be the case. But alas.

Another biggie is learning how to not take compliments and love and kindness, etc. and find my affirmation in that. It is easy to do that, but it's not okay. These things are not bad in and of themselves, but I need to constantly find my affirmation in my first Love. Everything else will go well. It's definitely been an adventure and I'm definitely looking forward to the future. I love being with somebody who can and does make me laugh for hours on end. That's so important, I love laughing. If the saying is correct and laughter is the best medicine, than we're gonna live forever.

and ever.