This baby...

doesn't stop crying...EVER! My sister and her man went out on a date tonight for the first time in like, idk, maybe 8 months. He picked her up in a limo. He has money to blow. I think he's going to propose to her tonight (it's about time) 2 kiddos and 3 years living together later. He's a good dude, she's beautiful. Together they make impossibly adorable children that I love watching, except for this present moment when the 5 month old is the neediest thing in the universe. I'm too selfish to have kids. I taught Makaila how to say "Awesome" and now she says it all the time, at the funniest moments ever, like at Walmart when she throws the bottle of applesauce on the floor and it shatters everywhere, "AWESOME" and always with a smile. It's hard not to like her. She's definitely the next comedian in the fam.

I realized today that I haven't been to the gym in a little over a week. It's been crazy busy, dear trainer that's not even mine, thanks for reminding me. I haven't been sleeping that much, two nights ago around 4:30am I was still laying in bed with my thoughts and earnestly trying and wanting to sleep, when I guess I cried out "I JUST WANT TO SLEEP!" shortly after I hear a whisper, "me too," it was Ginny, she couldn't sleep either. We talked and then fell asleep, only to have to be awake and at work three hours later. I've been drinking a lot of tea, more than I ever have, probably because I haven't been drinking coffee. Doc told me that I need to drink more water, half my body weight in fluid ounces, I believed him but looked it up anyways and sure enough, he was telling the truth.

Bougie is finally asleep...ptL!

I tried drinking that much for two days, but I stopped because I wasn't getting hungry and I had a belly full of water. It took me back to when I was younger, I would purposely drink an abundance of water and lay down on the floor and listen to it all swoosh around in my belly. I was able to hear that same thing for two days and it made me smile, but when I woke up with an intense hunger I've only experienced after a super duper long fast I decided that I would stop trying to impress my employer and just do whatever I want.

I purchased 6 more books (2 of Dostoevsky, super excited) last night and a children's book called "Parts" some kid at the office asked me to read it to them and I did, because I would rather do pretty much anything besides blog all day about peripheral neuropathy, diabetes, etc., and I LOL'd a lot and thought, "if I ever have a kid I think they would appreciate this book." I mean, even if they didn't I would still read it to them. So I got it and added it to my slowly growing stack of future kiddo(s) books. I think it's safe to say that I now own well over 600 books. I'm working on my library. I can't be the old cat lady (due to 1. allergies and 2. hatred), but I can be the old book lady. I'll take it.

I was/am seriously considering dying my hair red...like Deborah Messing red. I think it will look good, I haven't dyed my locks in about 4 years, I think it's time again. I have a great friend who's a hair stylist, so I know I'd be in good hands. Like I was telling my friend earlier though, I just don't know if I'll be up for the upkeep. Blonde roots growing out isn't that cute, (any roots aren't cute). I'm gonna wait until the summer though, I think it would look better once I'm tan again, not pasty. I'm asking the Lord just to change the color of my hair, I kinda like not having to do anything to it besides wash it. Well, even that's optional.

And she's awake again. Tootles.